well... it's 1 o'clock in the morning... just managed to activiate the phone line this afternoon... and guess, since the last time i wrote.. i have so many things to write and tell you and the world..
4/10/07 7:30am.. the home phone was ringging.. it was tok wang calling, asking how was i and aidan as i did not answer her phone call the night before.. told her i went to bed early, and so did my aidan
4/10/07 8:00am.. had a stomach cramp - called loh to tell him that i called in sick and won't be able to join him for the meeting in kuantan ( i was with him the whole day the day before - meeting customers in kerteh)
4/10/07 8:10am.. i was sure the pain i was feeling was exactly like a contraction - but i was a month away to my due date.. and i was supposed to have my check-up on the following wednesday... and hopefully to plan for my induced pregancy on the 20th.. aidan already woke up, and loyally looking at me in pain while i was trying to get thru the hubby.. he just went for offshore the day before.. manage to get him directly in few rings.. and told him i couldn't bear the pain..
4/10/07 8:15am.. tried calling my brother in-law, to ask him to fetch me and aidan at bukit kuang, so that we can go to kuantan for check-up if necessary.. but to no avail.. called my mum-in-law, told her i couldn't bear the pain, and she asked me to stay put while she looked for help..
4/10/07 8:30am.. my mum-in-law reached the house with ayah chik, and insisted of going to kemaman hospital when she lloked at my condition.. though i've been quite hesitant for the first 5 minutes, out of respect, and of course as the pain getting stronger, i decided to agreed with her..
4/10/07 8:45am.. reached the hospital - facing a lot of trouble as the nurses were being so 'hostile' especialy when they realised i did not have the 'buku merah' where i should have - so that it's easier for them to track my records etc.. what the heck.. i never planned to go to the government hospital.. but i really do not have any choice.. my mentality has been set up that the treatment would definitely be worst we can think of.. and i was not wrong... i was 8cm dilated when they checked me.. and was immediately sent to the labour room...
4/10/07 9:30am.. i was 8 cm dilated, and because of the hostility of the nurses, i decided to 'push' and not to wait any longer.. alhamdullillah - it was an easy one-time push.. yes, i was a bit sad as hubby was not around for the 2nd time - but not that he wanted not to be there.. anyway, i still hate the nurse.. how could she just sew my wounds, without any 'ubat bius'.. the pain was unbearable.. i was crying the whole lot..
i can write more about my bad experience in the 3rd call gomen hospital.. it was very very bad, and it was just like what i've imagined.. my baby was only 35 weeks and 5 days, and was considered as borderline premat and need to be left in the incubater in the nursery - apart from me.. and i was so sad.. the nursery was on the second floor.. and i was putting all my strength to go up and see him every hour and so.. he was so tiny - 2.5kg.. i could bearly see any meat on him.. i cried and cried and cried.. because of the baby, because of the hospital.. and i really felt so alone..
the hospital did not want to discharge my baby - and as a result, i have to stay for another night - 2 consecutive nights, and i'm done.. when the peaditrician told me that i need to star for another 3 nights, i told him that i'll take my chances..
gosh.. i'm not even halfway thru... i'll shorthen things out - my hubby came back on saturday, and on sunday, we went back to kl - visited dr iean on monday, and was warded immediately to continue on the antibiotic given by previous doctor.. and then, dr iean told me that the jaundice was high, but it was normal for premat baby..all you need is the photo-light treatment..
and that was it.. the 'normal' joundice became prolonged jaundice... and baby was warded 4 times within a month in his life.. :(
my beloved muhammad aqiel aimar, you are special.. very special one.. and of course, stornger than mama and aboh can imagine.. with the jaundice, and the nurses kept taking your blood to see your jaundice reading.. with the photo-lights etc.. we knew you are storgent than you should be.. sayang, now that you are one month old, and tomorrow, we still need to go for the the check-up with dr iean, and hopefully would be the last for the jaundice check-up.. despite the jaundice.. you are one healthy baby.. gaining weight up to 3.8kg.. i'm sure you'll do just fine.. yes, i do feel a bit 'terkilan' as at the age of 3 weeks, you already on formula and breastmilk due to your jaundice, but i'm sure you'll do just fine..
abang aidan loves you very much.. whenever you cry (which is seldom and 'less annoying' as compared to your abang aidan when he was your age), he will want to kiss you eventhough sometimes he's the one who make you cry.. you don't want to know how he 'bully' you, but i bet you both will get along just fine.. am sure abang aidan got so many tricks to show and share with you...
so sayang, please know that all of us sayang you so very much.. and we welcomed you to the world.. our family is getting bigger with your arrival... and we just love you as much as we love aidan..
p/s: you raya collection is more than abang aidan.. i guess you just want to come out early to celebrate raya huh???
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