the ultimate surprise: 2007-11-06 (40 weeks)

well... it's 1 o'clock in the morning... just managed to activiate the phone line this afternoon... and guess, since the last time i wrote.. i have so many things to write and tell you and the world..




4/10/07 7:30am.. the home phone was ringging.. it was tok wang calling, asking how was i and aidan as i did not answer her phone call the night before.. told her i went to bed early, and so did my aidan



4/10/07 8:00am.. had a stomach cramp - called loh to tell him that i called in sick and won't be able to join him for the meeting in kuantan ( i was with him the whole day the day before - meeting customers in kerteh)



4/10/07 8:10am.. i was sure the pain i was feeling was exactly like a contraction - but i was a month away to my due date.. and i was supposed to have my check-up on the following wednesday... and hopefully to plan for my induced pregancy on the 20th.. aidan already woke up, and loyally looking at me in pain while i was trying to get thru the hubby.. he just went for offshore the day before.. manage to get him directly in few rings.. and told him i couldn't bear the pain..



4/10/07 8:15am.. tried calling my brother in-law, to ask him to fetch me and aidan at bukit kuang, so that we can go to kuantan for check-up if necessary.. but to no avail.. called my mum-in-law, told her i couldn't bear the pain, and she asked me to stay put while she looked for help..



4/10/07 8:30am.. my mum-in-law reached the house with ayah chik, and insisted of going to kemaman hospital when she lloked at my condition.. though i've been quite hesitant for the first 5 minutes, out of respect, and of course as the pain getting stronger, i decided to agreed with her..



4/10/07 8:45am.. reached the hospital - facing a lot of trouble as the nurses were being so 'hostile' especialy when they realised i did not have the 'buku merah' where i should have - so that it's easier for them to track my records etc.. what the heck.. i never planned to go to the government hospital.. but i really do not have any choice.. my mentality has been set up that the treatment would definitely be worst we can think of.. and i was not wrong... i was 8cm dilated when they checked me.. and was immediately sent to the labour room...



4/10/07 9:30am.. i was 8 cm dilated, and because of the hostility of the nurses, i decided to 'push' and not to wait any longer.. alhamdullillah - it was an easy one-time push.. yes, i was a bit sad as hubby was not around for the 2nd time - but not that he wanted not to be there.. anyway, i still hate the nurse.. how could she just sew my wounds, without any 'ubat bius'.. the pain was unbearable.. i was crying the whole lot..



i can write more about my bad experience in the 3rd call gomen hospital.. it was very very bad, and it was just like what i've imagined.. my baby was only 35 weeks and 5 days, and was considered as borderline premat and need to be left in the incubater in the nursery - apart from me.. and i was so sad.. the nursery was on the second floor.. and i was putting all my strength to go up and see him every hour and so.. he was so tiny - 2.5kg.. i could bearly see any meat on him.. i cried and cried and cried.. because of the baby, because of the hospital.. and i really felt so alone..



the hospital did not want to discharge my baby - and as a result, i have to stay for another night - 2 consecutive nights, and i'm done.. when the peaditrician told me that i need to star for another 3 nights, i told him that i'll take my chances..



gosh.. i'm not even halfway thru... i'll shorthen things out - my hubby came back on saturday, and on sunday, we went back to kl - visited dr iean on monday, and was warded immediately to continue on the antibiotic given by previous doctor.. and then, dr iean told me that the jaundice was high, but it was normal for premat baby..all you need is the photo-light treatment..



and that was it.. the 'normal' joundice became prolonged jaundice... and baby was warded 4 times within a month in his life.. :(



my beloved muhammad aqiel aimar, you are special.. very special one.. and of course, stornger than mama and aboh can imagine.. with the jaundice, and the nurses kept taking your blood to see your jaundice reading.. with the photo-lights etc.. we knew you are storgent than you should be.. sayang, now that you are one month old, and tomorrow, we still need to go for the the check-up with dr iean, and hopefully would be the last for the jaundice check-up.. despite the jaundice.. you are one healthy baby.. gaining weight up to 3.8kg.. i'm sure you'll do just fine.. yes, i do feel a bit 'terkilan' as at the age of 3 weeks, you already on formula and breastmilk due to your jaundice, but i'm sure you'll do just fine..



abang aidan loves you very much.. whenever you cry (which is seldom and 'less annoying' as compared to your abang aidan when he was your age), he will want to kiss you eventhough sometimes he's the one who make you cry.. you don't want to know how he 'bully' you, but i bet you both will get along just fine.. am sure abang aidan got so many tricks to show and share with you...



so sayang, please know that all of us sayang you so very much.. and we welcomed you to the world.. our family is getting bigger with your arrival... and we just love you as much as we love aidan..



p/s: you raya collection is more than abang aidan.. i guess you just want to come out early to celebrate raya huh???

nearing the end: 2007-09-30 (35 weeks)

hei my dear baby...




me, aboh & abg aidan went for my check-up last friday.. my weigh lessen 1/2kg, perhaps because i was fasting - i was 55kg before, and the latest was 54.5kg.. but not too worry, i have faith in you that you'll wait for aboh to be around when you decided to come out to the world...



so, over the weekend, we did shop few items for abg aidan's raya.. well... didn't buy anything for you as i'm sure there'll be more to come when you are out...



my next checkup would be in 2 weeks time - finger-crossed that we'll make it while aboh is around, and manage to deliver in kl gleneagle... insyaallah.

itchy scratchy blotchy: 2007-09-19 (33 weeks)

Hei baby dear...


i wrote one lengthy blog yesterday - but poof - it just gone.. let see if i can recall some of them..



i definitely wanted to tell you about my latest visit.. i gained 3 kg - now weighing 55kg.. dr aziz was saying that you have 'engaged' means you have position yourself fixed, awaiting for delivery day.. and you'll be less than 3kg (just like abg aidan).. we heard your heartbeat.. 150beats/sec.. and dr aziz is expecting you to be due earliest by 20th Oct 07 - so, how about shairng same birth date with mama???



abang aidan now will kiss my tummy, and put his ear on my tummy, just to listen to adik - i'm sure you both been communicating while he put his ear to listen to you..



mama, mama yeen, atuk, nenek and abg aidan went back to kedah for bukak posa over the weekend.. everybody was telling me that i don't have a tummy like i'm 8-month preggie.. it looks smaller than it should.. my feets are not swollen, thank God.. but guess what.. i was scratching all over myslef - head to toe.. yup.. when i have the same reaction when i was carrying abg aidan, i thought it was food allergics or something..now that i got it at nearly towards my late last trimester, i just knew that it just my body reacting to you inside me.. perhaps welcoming you when the day come...



my condition is bad.. the whole body covered with red marks, and scratches etc... just hope that it goes well..fast..



my sleep has been disturbed as i've realised that i'm scratching in the middle of sleeps... hmm..



anyway, today is 6th ramadhan - and i'm still surviving and fasting... so proud of you for being so understanding..



i'll be going for next check-up next week - will tell you more about the updates..

good boy: 2007-09-09 (32 weeks)

mama and abg aidan went to kuantan last friday - abg aidan was very good - and so did my boy in my belly... both of you were behaving well, and i'm so proud to have kids like you two.. we went to the bank, and i was 'exempted' from the long que as i was 'heavily' pregant - thanks to you my dear baby.. kecik2 lagi dah buat jasa ngan mama :)




kuantan was ok - we reached kemaman at around 10pm - and both me & abg aidan was so tired when we reached home - tried calling aboh, and apparently, he was already asleep - must be very tired after long-hours working at the platform.. abah was the acting platform supt - no 1 guy on the platform.. who knows, with you joining us this year, ade rezeki, aboh will be the real plat supt instead of acting - always proud of him... he worked hard, and he deserved all the compliments...



i had a dream, again..gave birth to a healthy you - and still not in gleneagles... hmm.. me, worried? hell i am...



anyway, abang aidan was born when i was on my 37th weeks - that means, if you happen to be out during at the same duration - that would be during raya, which, insyaallah i'll be in kl - and aboh will be around - let's pray harder..



puasa month is coming - this thursday.. hope that i can survive - at least for the first two weeks :)

another nightmare: 2007-09-02 (31 weeks)

i hardly sleep for the past 3 months - i guess it was when i slept that baby decided to move as often as he could...




anyway, last night, came to my horror - my biggest fear - a nightmare.. i was in labour at noweher - it was kuantan specialist hospital, the gyno is a guy doctor, but not dr aziz, the labour room was so small, making me claustrophobic, and the add to my biggest fear, there were no mr husband... my hubby was offshore, and next emergency chopper would definitely couldn't make it on time as i was going to give birth to our secoond baby anytime..



gosh...



hei sayang, my dear baby, my smart beau, .. i pray and pray hard that my nightmare don't come true - at least, for this time, let aboh be around to welcom you, ok...

what is your name?: 2007-08-27 (30 weeks)

we have started looking for names - there were one name that i like at the moment - aryan - but i guess, we need to reconsider - the meaning is not so strong - and there'll be more better names if we keep on digging... aboh said he likes aqeel - which is ok for me... so we'll see..




i physically can't stand my conditions nowadays - too very tired easily, backache most of the times... was still vomitting yesterday... abang aidan will try to 'massage' me his hard when i requested him to do so... that abang of yours - i bet he can't wait for adik to come out - he will surely loves having youa round to play with...



my last checkup with dr aziz was all fine - i was 52kg - a 4 kg gain then previous checkup.. i was told that my tummy is smaller than previously, but i do feel that you are heavier than your brother....



me & aboh have started discussing about his leaves - he will be offshore during the 1st day of raya - and will be back onshore the 3rd day of raya - he'll have his 2 weeks off-day, and will extend it till, hopefully, you come out- estimatedly, you'll be out by Nov 9th... and really pray hard that i will be on time in kl and aboh won't miss the big day - he missed abang's labour day..



so sayang.. help me... don't be too unpredictable :)



p/s: now, whenever we asked you brother what his name is - he'll say "bang" or sometime "dang" (terengganu accent for dan)...

panic attacked...: 2007-08-19 (29 weeks)

hei baby in my belly...




my 7th month checkup with dr aziz has been 2 weeks due, and i've set for the thursday the 16th... however, it was tuesday the 14th, that i was alerted with having some brownish blood after my meeting at MTBE..went straight to ibnu sina, and the GP asked me to check with my gyno, if not that very night, then the next day - to wait for another 24hrs for the checkup that i've fixed would be too late.. so, i went and picked up aidan... called aboh.. packed things up.. and off to kl..



the checkup on the very next morning was ok - dr aziz was telling me that there's no abnormalities, baby is alive, healthy and kicking (and i do realised that the kicking was frequent and hard on Tuesday)...dr aziz was telling me that you weigh about 750g.. and we saw your 'birdie'... clearly... and i was smiling - seeing you growing up in my tummy.. and feeling you trying to have bigger space in there... just can't wait till the time come....dr aziz was telling me the bleeding might just because of my physical activities.. not because of the complications with the pregnancies...



anyway, i had 2 days MC.. and only back in kemaman last night - atuk and nenek came along - they never will let me drive alone with aidan even if i insists...



with the 2 days MC .. i spend my time shopping.. bought a lot of stuff for you - now, i'm really looking forward to welcome you to the the world.... two more months to go.. i'm still praying that everyhting goes as planned...



so my dear baby, stay healthy in there..



btw, i'm going for the test held in kuantan this wednesday - really hope that we can make it thru - mana tau, rezeki baby :)